Dutt's chequered career should make a fine learning-curve biopic, but this three-hour hagiography simply blames everyone else for his troubles
The career of Bollywood megastar Sanjay Dutt has been the rockiest of rides. Born to Nargis, iconic figurehead of 1957's Mother India, Dutt's initial breakthrough was stymied by drink, drugs and womanising, and subsequent comebacks separated by stretches of prison time.
His air of disrepute bolstered 2006's terrific comedy Lage Raho Munna Bhai, where Dutt played a heavy nagged towards virtue by Gandhi's ghost: the gags there had the ring of hard truth.
That film's director Rajkumar Hirani now brings us a decidedly soft and authorised-looking biopic featuring boyish pin-up Ranbir Kapoor as the roguish colossus, which to British eyes seems like recruiting, say, Men's Hour lynchpin Tim Samuels to play Ray Winstone.
In actuality, Kapoor proves a lightweight film's strongest suit: he's accumulated enough muscle mass, the bags under the eyes that speak to late-night licentiousness, even a measure of Dutt's bad-boy swagger.
Everything else about this hagiography intends to make the character look good.
Sanju opens with third Dutt's wife Manyata persuading an initially sceptical journalist to tell her suicidal hubby's side of the story, and that's exactly what this script does, generating nigh-on three hours of self-justification.
The drugs were the actor's way of escaping his father's control and his mother's decline. The women? He was irresistible and broken-hearted. The guns? There for protection. The infamy? Blame the press.
There's a certain old-school comic nous about an early mix-up involving women and whisky, but it's otherwise sad to see an irreverent talent like Hirani tidying up generally unruly legend, and trying to reframe a lot of grimly male misbehaviour as simple misunderstanding.
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【重音テト】This Messed-Up Wonderful World Exists For Me【UTAUカバー】 - Duration: 5:10.
In this messed-up wonderful world (kono fuzaketa subarashiki sekai)
I'm alive in order to see you. (kimi ni au tame ni ikiru)
Tonight, let's flourish until the break of dawn, (koyoi wa yo ga akeru made sakasou)
Make our eyes spin. (guruguru me o mawashite)
In this crazy, beautiful world (kono kusottare de utsukushii sekai)
Look dead ahead and charge forth. (massugu mite tsuki susume)
Dance now, dance, let's all turn into fools. (odore ya odore aho ni nari mashou)
Everyone scream, "yan yai" (minna sakebe yanyai)
Oh, (mou,)
not sure I can take it much longer (dame ni nari so)
Yes↑↑
yan ya yan ya yai ya x3
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When a liar's possessed with mythomania (usotsuki otoko no kyogen heki)
Does it also count for righteous in this world? (yo no naka de wa sore mo seigi?)
Flabbergasted, confounded. The day comes to a close. (areyo areyo to kyou mo owaru)
What'd I have for lunch... (hiru wa nani tabeta kke...)
Dogs and cats climb trees. (inu mo neko mo ki ni noboru)
Y'know, fussing over the little things (akuseku shitatte nani mo)
Doesn't get anything off the ground. (hajimari wa shiyasen ze)
In this messed-up wonderful world (kono fuzaketa subarashiki sekai)
I coop up in my home. (boku wa ie ni hikikomoru)
I zip all around the digital globe, (gangan tobasu dejitaru chikyuu)
It's where the exciting future awaits. (wakuwaku mirai wa soko)
In this crazy and beautiful world (kono kusottare de utsukushii sekai)
All there's to do is frolic and be merry. (yukai ni hashagu dake desu)
It turns out us two meeting is predestined? (futari ga deau koto ga unmei?)
Well, then, that's not too bad. (sorenara warukunai ne)
An ill woman's fantasies (yami onna no mousou heki)
Might still hold currency in this world. (yononaka de wa mada ikeru kamo?)
As I thought of nothing but that, (sonna koto bakari kangaete)
Ah, I'm gonna run late. (aa, chikoku shisou)
The gramps and grannies are getting on our case (jiji baba mo netsu o ageru)
Toiling away, toiling away, (hatarake do hatarake do)
Is this really the solution? (honto ni kore de ii no?)
Even this messed-up wonderful world (kono fuzaketa subarashiki sekai)
Could wind up a rotten apple. (kusatta ringo ni mo naru)
But I guess no need to be pessimistic, (sonna ni hikan suru koto mo nai ka)
Since we make do in our lives, here and there. (sokosoko ni ikiterushi)
In this crazy and beautiful world (kono kusottare de utsukushii sekai)
How do you make friends? (tomodachi tte dou tsukuru no?)
If I've got you, I guess I'm all right. (kimi ga ireba mondai nai ka)
...where is this you, in question? (...kimi tte doko ni iru no?)
It's all jumbled, it's all a mess, smeared with flocks of crowds. (mou hicchaka mecchaka hitogomi ni mamirete)
Not realizing they're being taken by the current, (nagasareteru dake ni kidzuka nai mama de)
Such imperfect yet perfect humans, such as they are, y'know? (fukanzen de kanzen na hito tte sou deshou yo)
See, I'm out of, so out of breath (hora konna ni konna ni iki o kirashiteru yo)
Yet I spot no save nor load point, (demo seebu mo roodo mo mattaku miatarazu)
This is my careless yet droll life there. (kore ga boku no yudan de miwaku na jinsei sa)
In this... (kono...)
In this messed-up wonderful world (kono fuzaketa subarashiki sekai)
I'm alive in order to see you. (kimi ni au tame ni ikiru)
Tonight let's flourish until the break of dawn, (koyoi wa yo ga akeru made sakasou)
Make our eyes spin. (guruguru me o mawashite)
In this sh*tty and beautiful world (kono kusottare de utsukushii sekai)
All there's to do is frolic and be merry. (yukai ni hashagu dake desu)
It's not something I should...tell strangers, but (tanin ni iu beki koto...janai ga)
You guys, I love you all! ❤ (omae ra, aishiteruze)
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I gave you all of me
But it still ain't enough to make you happy
I gave you everything
It still don't measure up
It feels like I walked five thousand miles
And didn't even come close
Feels like
I try to make you smile
But you don't even care, no
I'll never be big enough to pay your dues
But I keep trying
And you just keep making me jump through hoops
What do I got to do ?
I just want you to look at me
And see that I can be worth your love
I just want you to look at me
And see that I can be
Good enough, good enough
Good enough
And see that I can be
Good enough, good enough
Good enough
Look at me
I'm standing right here waiting for you
Here I am
Look at me
Lookin' for your acceptance, do you give a damn?
Look at me
See it doesn't matter what you think,
I'm still a man
Look at me
Open up your eyes,
Can't you see that I'm good enough
I just want you to look at me
Look at me
I just want you to look at me
And see that I can be
Good enough, good enough
I just wanna be,yeah
Good enough,
Good enough,
Good enough,
Good enough...
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Demi Lovato's concert, Tell me you love me tour, Bologna, 27/06/18 - Duration: 20:46.
Good morning. Today is the 27th of June and so I'm going to go to the Demi Lovato's concert and I'm so happy!
Me and my mum have already arrived in Bologna. We had some difficulties during the trip so I couldn't film until now
So first of all we are going to visit Bologna 'cause I don't think I have ever been here
Then we are going to our hotel and in the evening, as y'all already know, we're going to the Demi Lovato's concert.
already speaking in English... 😂
Just repeating in Italian what I've just said in English...
And nothing, now I'm going to visit Bologna with y'all☺️
My lunch: shrimps with potatoes, salad and mayonnaise and a peach tea as drink.
and now a coconut, blueberry and white chocolate ice cream 😋
This kitten is just TOO cute 😍
I love this kitten!
Perfect, now we have just arrived in our room, and there the light is so weird, also 'cause my cell phone is senile😂
And nothing, so we have just visited Bologna, and I have filmed some videos for you, even if not many and I'm sorry.
Then we took the train and we arrived in Casalecchio di Reno, a small hamlet near Bologna, where we have taken this room.
And now I'm going to do the room tour for you
And now it's 4.15 p.m. so we still have a lot of time 'cause the concert starts at 9.00 p.m.
Now we are going to rest a little, and then we are going to get ready for the concert ☺️
After that I think we'll go out at about 6:30 p.m. and I think we'll eat something here to be at the arena at about 7.00 p.m.
So we can enter quietly, calmly and maybe we'll buy something of Demi
And nothing, for now we are staying here and as I told you we are going to rest a little
And I really can't wait anymore for the concert!!😍 I'm realizing only now! Because, I don't know, in these days I was very busy and so I didn't even realize that this day was really coming!😍
I'm soo excited! I can't really wait anymore!!!😍
Here we go with the room tour!
This is the entrance door,
And here there's a mirror
Then, here we have this piece of furniture with lots of drawers
Why isn't the focus working??
oh, alright
Here are some things that we brang, like this big rucksack
ok, here there's a lamp
Here they have already brung us some sweets and now I think I'll eat one of them
Maybe this one. I think it's a muffing. I'm a bit hungry.
Here we have an another mirror. I love this room 'cause we have lots of mirrors!
Here there is a T.V. that I don't think we are going to have enough time to watch.
Here we have a bedside table, and this is our bed, which is a double bed
There we have an another bedside table.
I don't understand what is this but it's pretty.
And this room is all about shades of green apple color, that I like so much, and I know that it doesn't make sense but I think this color is kinda relaxing!😂
And nothing, so this is our room. It is so pretty, even if it is a bit little, but it's ok 'cause we are going to stay here only one night.
This is the bathroom door, and even this door is green apple!
I don't know how to open it! How can I open this door? (I was asking it to my mum, lmao 😂)
Oh, ok!😂 And nothing, the bathroom is little and here we have an another mirror!
And yeah, this place is really pretty, even if not big.
Oh, I forgot to tell you that today on newsstands I found this magazine with Ariana Grande as protagonist, and so I bought it. It's so beautiful!
and I feel a bit like a treacherous that I'm going to the Demi Lovato's concert and I bought something about Ariana😂
but it's ok 'cause at the Arena I think I'll buy something of Demi☺️
And yeah, this magazine is really beautiful and now I think I'll read it. I think it tells about Ariana Grande's new album, 'cause I have already read something.
Ok, perfect. I'm sorry if it's a bit dark, but I didn't know where to film, 'cause the light is so weird here
Anyway we rested a bit and I have already finished to get ready. It's only 6.20 p.m
So now I'm going to show you what I'm wearing. I wear an a bit short skirt with a beautiful open on the backT-shirt, so it's an outfit suitable for a concert, but still modern.
My make-up is the make-up that I wear everyday, so it isn't strong.
And now I'm waiting for my mum to finish to get ready, and then I think we'll eat something here and after that we are already going to go at the Arena, so we can do everything calmly.
and yeah, I'm soo excited!!!😍
And so this is my outfit. I can't show you the full outfit 'cause the place where the long mirror is it's too dark!
It's there, that corner it's too dark! so you couldn't see almost anything!
And nothing, so this is my outfit and now maybe I'll show you some pictures that I'm going to ask my mum to take, so you can see the full version.
And I'm sorry for the mess here but it's the only way I found to show you the outfit with a video, while I'm going to show you the full outfit with the shoes in these pictures...
Now, on my nails I have this very beautiful Essence nail varnish. I like it so much 'cause it's simple, it's really shimmer and I think it's really elegant!
And I usually like dark colors on my nails, but this is particularly fascinating! I don't know.. I think it is so!
Now we are going to the concert and look at the beautiful landscape with the clouds!😍
And we are a little worried 'cause there is a really strong wind, and I'm wearing the skirt so I have to hold it! But ok😂
We're already in the arena! There is a mess! While we were waiting to enter it started to rain and it was a mess 'cause we had not got an umbrella
But I'm SOO HAPPY anyways!😍😍
Are you sure that the concerts starting at 9.00 p.m.? (asking to my mum) My mum's answer: YES! Me: ok perfect, the concert is starting at 9.00 p.m.😍
Anyway, I bought a Demi's band as a memory, and after the concert I'm going to show it to you, 'cause here there isn't much light and above all there isn't much space.
anyway our places are comfortable, 'cause here I'm the last in the line so there is nobody preventing me the view!
and yeah, there is the stage. I'm soon excited!😍 there is still more than one hour away, so I don't know what we are going to do.
Probably you'll not hear (instead yes yeyyy!😂) but this is Joy, the support artist.
I'm just getting mad! lmaooo!
I'm really getting mad!!😍
yeah, it's me singing, lmao. Demi left us sing this part!😍
I really adore!!!
Dance break (I'm sorry the visual is so bad! This phone of mine... ): )
It's me singing again!😂
And another time!😂 Demi left us sing the whole first strophe😍
We made the Italian flag with torches!😍
Ok, here we are back in our room! The return journey wasn't without adventures!
And nothing. About the concert... I'm still so happy that I went to the concert and that I saw Demi, but Demi was REALLY SO tired! I think it was her worst concert in this tour (but of course it was still very good!)
She was really so tired! Poor baby ): We can't blame her! She's on tour since February and she sings every night! And she also had swollen vocal chords about two weeks ago.. poor baby ):
Then it seemed that she completely recovered and now she's tired again.. ):
I really hope she gets better soon! It's a shame that it happened right at my concert! But it's ok.. I'm still so happy that i went to her concert!☺️
And nothing, now I'm going to tell you the adventures that we had to overcome during this evening!
So, first of all it started to rain when we were waiting to enter in the arena
And I didn't tell you that before they recommended us a way to reach the arena on foot, but it was just on the road! with all the cars! and I was wearing the skirt.. so.. ok, I let you imagine😂
Then we entered in the arena and, as you know, the bottles must be without plugs, after what happened at the end of Ariana Grande's concert in the Manchester arena.. ):
and so we bought the bottle and we left it near our seat. We went 5 minutes to the toilet and when we came back there was a lake under our seats 'cause someone overthrowed our bottle...
On the way back we were looking for a taxi but we couldn't find it, and the bus doesn't reach the place that we needed to reach, so we had to come back on foot, alone on the dark streets!
And so my mum was really scared, more than me, and so now she's reassuring.
And nothing, luckily we are save in our room now.
And I really hope that Demi will recover as soon as possible, and I'm sorry that she was that tired right at my concert.
I swear that even when she came back after the illness she didn't sound that tired as today!
I'm not saying her voice was bad, it was really good! She's Demi and she's always amazing! But it was pretty obvious that she was trying to give the minimum.. (it's obviously right that she's trying to not damage her voice.. I'm just saying I'm sorry that it happened right at my concert)
And yeah.. my hair has slightly curled 'cause it was still raining when we went on the way back
And I don't think I'll continue to vlog tomorrow, 'cause we aren't going to do anything interesting. We are going to come back in Milan soon.
I really hope I'll sleep well tonight, 'cause I usually don't sleep well in new beds..
so.. what can I say? I hope that you liked this video, if it is so don't forget to leave a like and a comment, share this video and subscribe to my channel. Comment down below and let me know if you love Demi too
Follow me on social media. You can find my nicknames in the description.
and the last thing.. I'm going to the sea on the 30th of June, so my channel is going stop for a little time and I'm so sorry 'cause I have just restarted to post videos. I'll try to post many videos and other covers when I come back in Milan. I hope you are happy!
Guys I have just realized that maybe it isn't clear that I'm so happy and grateful that I had the opportunity to go to the Demi's concert, even if her voice wasn't on top. The most important thing is that I saw this incredible singer live! It was incredibly amazing!
I forgot to show you the band I bought! It's so beautiful on both sides! On this side is written the date of the concert, Demi Lovato with various photos of her and Tell me you love me world tour.
On the other side, that is the side that I prefer, is still written the date of the concert and then there are some photos of the Sorry Not Sorry video that is one of my favorite songs, so I love it so much! This side of the band is all about shades of purple
And nothing, so I bought is as a memory of this amazing day!😍
The last thing that I haven't told you yet, is that Samantha Frison (a famous Italian youtuber) was next to me at the concert!😍 and she's so thin, omg! But she is really beautiful!
And nothing, so now I send you lots of kisses. See ya, I love you😍
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Charles & Manon | ❝Maybe you could help me grow...❞ [for Cecilie] - Duration: 1:46.
Listen, Charles.
You're a smart guy, right?
They think Charles is a good guy, that will change for them
but that it never happens, huh.
I can't breathe anymore, it feels like I'm gonna die.
Manon, you're not gonna die.
Listen,
You should know that the more you push me away, the more I want to be with you.
So if you really want to get rid of me,
you should agree to go out with me at least once.
(Charles: Leave to your place?)
Would you like to move in with me?
Yes, let's move in together.
Wow, you're a really awesome guy
Who are you?
You like me.
I know it.
Seriously, Manon!
If Charles is the most important thing to you,
Happy birthday!
-you should try to be with him. If it doesn't work, that's life.
But you won't know until you've tried.
We're together now
No.
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MUSAFIR | Collab With Me!!! | IRFAN JUNEJO | #HonorXJunejo #HonorPakistan - Duration: 1:01.
if I was a word it would have been a traveler four years ago I packed my bags
and chose not to be a common man I chose to be different to be fearless to be
free to wonder and to travel the world and have no regrets because if not now
then when I travel to live my life to the fullest I travel because I want more
out of my life I want to chase my dreams and most
importantly I want to find myself my values the purpose of being in this
world I travel and make videos because I believe that there are thousands of
untold stories which deserve to be known by many here in this world my name is
Shariq Raza I'm a traveler the YouTube a vlogger I am representing Pakistan
everywhere I go and this is my life this is my journey
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Watch Me Draw! #6: Jeffervescent (WISH Series) - Duration: 5:01.
In this alternate universe take on Jeff Millennium, he's been turned into a soda-based robot like Fizz Man.
He's become a famous radio talk show host and DJ. Fun Fact: His talk show is called "Bubble Babble".
Yes, we still use CDs in the future. It's a very fancy, hi-tech CD.
Unlike Fizz Man's signature bottle helmet, Jeffervescent has a helmet shaped like a can.
This fun angle makes him look more like a free-spirited disc jockey. At least, that's what made sense to me.
I take a lot of pride in the mechanical details of my robots. Those knuckle joints really say "robot" to me!
We move from sketch blue to black outline when I feel like the design is finalized enough.
It's just not Jeff Millennium without his signature eyebrows!
The main Fizz Man torso type I've been using lately is a pitcher. The spout makes a fun anatomical piece.
Fizz Man hands, as per the latest redesign, are soda can pull tabs on rotational hinges.
You might think that a robot made of glass would break constantly, but it is a high durability transparent polymer.
The "soda" inside is a nanomachine solution that generates power through atomic "fizzing".
This rainbow sheen effect is something I go to fairly often in Photoshop. Didn't quite come out right this time.
Looks like radio station microphones haven't evolved much over the years. Maybe this one is kitschy?
This background is from an old commission of Jeff Millennium's where he's in a video editing studio.
The can helmet isn't transparent, so these are drawings of bubbles. You know, like you see on cans.
For more livestream drawings, be sure to follow Professor Hazard's Studio on Facebook.
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Dear Younger Me: What Wish I Could Tell My Younger Self - Duration: 29:27.
This is my first time doing this. I didn't do
it on public because I didn't know what was gonna happen, so I'm do this
privately and I'll post it if it's okay. For goodness sakes
I don't know what I just did. I'll try to hold very still, okay. I'm
right next to a fire here. Right next to the fireplace. I don't have a lot of light in here some
pretty dark other than this fire. I want to give us kind of cozy um fireside chat sort of feel because it is.
So it's kind of late'ish, late at night. So this season right now is my birthday
season which used to be a really happy time, but for a couple years now it's
also been kind of a sad time too because that means I'm coming up in the
university of like the last time I saw my son you know will always gonna coincide
with that cuz the last time that I saw him he come home for the 4th July
and my birthday. He came home on July 3rd and stayed till the 7th, and then left my son
was like 7th 2016, and then I talked to him on the night that it happened just a
couple hours before . The last words we said to each other were: I said
"be careful I love you" and he said " I love you too mom." Crazy.
So yeah, I've been thinking about my younger self you know like. It's funny how
time kind of collapses you know. Like you get to be middle-aged you know you have
adult kids, and even kids that even die you know all that.
And you know you remember yourself at their age it's not like when they were little
it I didn't even remember myself at their age I mean I totally...it doesn't even
seem that long ago, and strangely enough this year just because of social media
they've actually a couple people I've gotten in touch
with me, and they didn't even know me as a mom. I mean they knew me
before I had children so almost when I was almost that long ago so that's kind
of interesting it's kinda like a time capsule of you know I want him sent me
some pictures I'll put those up with the video but anyway so just you know kind a
lot of things are running through my mind like you know what would be the
things the things I would say to my younger self you know what what I wish I
knew or you know and of course that's a huge epic question it's like okay what
would I say to my younger self well would I you know what's the context
right what I know that it's my future self saying it to me so that I were like
would I be like my 25 year old self or 22 year old self hearing from my self
now knowing with the truth knew was gonna happen so I could change it or we
might not be able to change and I just you know like it might just we're just
be telling myself like relax pace yourself it's gonna be hard you
know when I say that or when I say don't you don't marry him don't we don't you
know I don't know obviously obviously I would if I could stop myself from and
making a couple critical decisions that I made back-to-back two decisions I made
back-to-back that were life-altering decisions that
I I can't imagine okay yeah that I can't imagine but what my life would have been
like had I not made the first always to move back move back home to Washington
leave leave Los Angeles I had just I was living down in Los Angeles and I just
been I just been like an agent had just discovered me well I like to have me
come in just screen tests and stuff I never even told anybody about that and I
I decided that relationships were what mattered to me and my grandmother just
bent down and she looked like she was getting so old and I didn't like miss
out on the last years with her and I had this missing memory from my childhood I
don't know what that was about I wanted to go back home and kind of piece
together my life I felt kind of disjointed disconnected from I couldn't
piece my life together my path together I wanted and I figured the legend sort
of mattered if I had this whole I have all my family and my childhood friends
everybody all up in one place all these people all the people that loved me in
one place why wouldn't I go up there and make my
life up there that was my logic at the time and so
that's what I did you know I I went up to Washington and then right away and it
was kind of prompted by my brother was getting my brother had become engaged to
a girl she was coming home for like a week for an engagement party and then
leaving forever she moved to Scotland to marry this woman and he was gonna move
there to Scotland and um so I'm thinking oh my parents are losing their son I
should go you know at least if I didn't if I'm
moving back that would make up for that you know like right now they have both
of us temporarily you know I'm going to California he was in Japan at the time
you know maybe hit that him saying he's permanently moving away maybe if I say
I'm moving back how to make up for that little did I know that
they were not gonna be unhappy with him moving to Scotland they were but they
were gonna been happy with my moving back they just they didn't care they
didn't want me moving back I had no idea I could never I wouldn't did not have
any idea that that would be the case so that was this is one and the decision to
have an almost simultaneous to back with it was vision one and that was um when I
got a call from my oldest friends older sister and I call him Griffin in my book
but his older sister who I call Maeve in my book invited me out with a group of
friends that I had a scrape of her friends I really wanna introduce you to
them there's a great group of women and you know though if you need a job or
place you know apartment or something they can really hooked you up but it's a
great group of women I really want you to meet him I think you fit in like
really great I was like oh thank god I just come through this rejection with my
mother and father and I was just like thank god this would this is wacky mom
this has never happened anywhere else this wouldn't happen in Los Angeles this
is where cuz I have old friends this is why I moved back here I went out I went
to meet this group of friends and it was a total setup there was nobody there but
my ex-husband he was the only guy there it was complete setup she'd done it all
for him arranged it all for him and for a split second alarm osmond off alarm
bell alarm bells I was really defend it at first I was like I was really bummed
out because she I'd really set it out like I was really flattered and excited
that she had called and invited me and then it was it was a scam and but I
quickly turned I quickly told myself but it was flattering that he'd go and all
this effort i mighta have to to go through to get her to do that and all
that and um and then also I told myself that because she set it up he must be a
really really it would be a really good guy you know that she's giving him just
her stamp of approval and I respected her opinion and
so you know I so if that was his number two and I you know I first and I wasn't
taking that seriously I didn't think it would really go anywhere so I was kind
of just kind of confessing with him like what was going on with me you know
emotionally with my family little did I know that I was like you
know telling this guy that was gonna complete sociopath I tend to be using it
all against me yeah I skip Effingham I'll guy yeah I
moved back up here and I don't remember my childhood and I'm having at least
weird like kind of flashbacks and my mother's acting so strange and you know
just whatever whatever and uh lo and behold they're all gonna come back to me
like ten years later he's gonna use it all you smell like it's me but um yeah
yeah whatsoever I'd shit what I've told my younger self well quick if I could
undo any of that I would definitely Warner hope they don't go back don't go
back don't and don't uh don't tell Mary that guy but aside from that I would I
would I would I would go a lot more and you trust me feel you need to trust how
you feel go with your feelings because I didn't at the time I didn't I didn't
listen to my feelings at all I I talked myself out of my feelings most of the
time and I told myself that I was too sensitive I told myself that I was you
know all the things that I'd been told you know I told myself that those are
those not reliable reliable feelings I can go I couldn't I couldn't just go
with what felt good all right it you know like if what she had done
felt bad to me or it felt wrong felt weird to me that he had lied to me I
didn't trust myself just go that doesn't feel right but it wasn't right it wasn't
right and it took me I forgot all about it for years not until the whole thing
blew up said Jackie later today even though these things even start to come
back to me that he was remember oh yeah our first date was a complete and total
lie our second jape he totally abandoned me
I had these stories on my channel you have to look at like my early dating
stories I tell those stories about what happened there were red flags all over
the place I totally ignore totally ignore the red flags so you know I would
I didn't I did not understand at all how I should be treated I had such low
standards for how I should be treated because you know just you know when you
I tell you when you have if you're a father of a daughter god don't
underestimate how important it is because you really are teaching your
little girl how how to be treated how she should how he deserves to be treated
and my father didn't teach me that I deserve to be treated with any kind of
tenderness or gentleness or or respect or anything you know he taught me that I
deserved to be neglected and should ignore my feelings indicator to someone
else's needs and that you know I just wasn't precious it wasn't important it
wasn't you know those would be the things I would tell my I would tell my
younger self I tell myself you are really special you're really special and
you haven't been loved well you don't know that you don't know that you
haven't been loved well but you haven't been loved well and you deserve to be
loved well you deserve to be loved unconditionally you deserve to know how
precious you are how wonderful you are how wonderful your big soft gentle heart
is and that it shouldn't be it shouldn't be taken advantage of or made fun of or
you know should be treated with utmost respect tender loving care
hmm and I'm sorry it wasn't you've been neglected I would tell her you've been
neglected you've really been neglected and you need to pay attention to it
don't go with what feels comfortable to you because what feels comfortable
familiar to you isn't going to be right it's not going to be right
you have to override override wet chemistry look what tells you that feels
right because it's not right it's just it's just familiar and if this doesn't
get through if I can't change the course of history then I'm just gonna say
pace yourself road really rough road but you can do it I wish I could make it
easier for you it's gonna be quite a journey but you'll be a wise woman one
day o wise wise women one day yeah and you know you're gonna live you're gonna
live and you know love fully and you're gonna have your heart broken but when
it's all over you will know you have lived and you'll have felt at all a full
range of everything
yeah I would I would you know if I if I had like me for a daughter I would
really try and change the way that I saw myself changed my value change what I
put up with gosh you know I really had imbalanced
relationships all around even with friends all around I had some good
people in my life too but I just I just didn't I just didn't expect enough of
anyone you know all right ended up putting up with a lot
of selfish people in my life you know I I was naturally drawn to them and they
were naturally drawn to me I asked so that's that I was raised I guess but
yeah he did a good job when I was probably you're a good good person
you've been a good person proud of you what person that you are
yeah it's hard up in vim overcome is this series of videos to trend up trying
to work on like um like post-traumatic groves and the things that come from
trauma here are the benefits that can come from it and you know kind of the
things that come from just you know like mistakes you know you guys I would I
would say to you is you know people a lot smarter than you will make much
Dumber mistakes than you've made so don't beat yourself up because it'll be
tempting because you'll have a lot of people blaming you because that's what
they do a lot of people in your life are blamers
you know so they'll blame you and you're gonna want to blame yourself because
you're gonna invest a lot of time this is if I can't change things so say
things just scare any other way they're gonna go things are just gonna go the
way they're gonna go that's a you're gonna invest a lot of time in people and
in things you're gonna give a hundred percent or things that are not going to
work out if you think that are going to completely blow up in your face and
people are going to take advantage of you and people are going to use you and
then blame you for things because it's they have to do because you're around a
lot of really sick people and
don't blame yourself you you learned from it you know you are you and you
were doing the right thing you went you went back to be with your family cuz
you're a family-oriented person you ambassador to be a devoted daughter and
granddaughter you got married you planning on being a devoted wife and
mother he completely you you did you did it
100% right you just didn't have boundaries
and you didn't have anyone no I had your back no one had your back you know my
husband wouldn't have been is abusive if I had a family on my side you know he
just knew he'd get away with it because it didn't have anyone protecting me and
my family was they just didn't they just didn't know me they just didn't know me
didn't they didn't know we didn't know what they have in me and so they just
they just didn't appreciate it and I bailed on me you know so nothing you
could do about any of that nothing you could you about any of that the only
thing the only thing that you did was take abuse for too long and so don't
spend a large time beating yourself up and abusing yourself then after it's
over because they're gonna kick you around really good and kick you around
they're gonna take everything from you that matters to you and you know lie
about you lie to themselves about you and you will have all the time just been
devoted you just been doing it just to get their approval and it's never gonna
come so you got give yourself your approval and you gotta understand the
you were up against an impossible impossible thing you said up just
something it seems so simple and seem so doable
she was so reasonable and I just wasn't you know when you made that decision you
said I'm gonna I'm gonna I'm not gonna go for this I'm not gonna try and be
trying to be as an actress I'm gonna try and do that that's way too lofty of the
goal I'm gonna scope go home and maybe a good daughter and a good sister
and a good you know whatever friend just be a good person that man I'll be the
hub of a family that seems very doable it should have been but in my case in
your case it probably was it will that was never possible it was more possible
for you to become a movie star for you to become an actress in Hollywood was
way more way more likely than the fact that you were ever gonna become you know
they were gonna have this happy family life with these people it was never
gonna happen but nobody could have told you that nobody could've told you that
nobody had showed you dad and of course nobody even tried to tell
you that and so it was already way too way too late here already really well
invested but because people don't think that way that's not a society a society
tells you that it's all doable your parents love you
society tells you that things like this don't happen but they do happen and
there's some reason why it happened to you and I believe that's because you are
strong enough to take it you have the skills to do something with it
maybe it's because you can write you can speak and whatever it needed to happen
to you so that you could do something with it to help people just read the
word about it to expose this kind of abuse to to do something to get to make
it so that the next generation has helped and I know that one of the things
was you thought you thought the ending the abuse in your family ending that
cycle of abuse in your family was was the goal and and it was and you did do
that it's just that
I didn't turn out the way you hoped because you didn't you also lost a child
but and that will obviously break your heart this person that is no special
person here in your world it's only gonna be here for our season you know
but yeah you are gonna have an epic life you can have an epic life and if say
you're 20 to 23 but I'm your life doubles you will not believe it you will
not believe the things that you've seen and John but if psychic once told me
even when I was looking who knows like like 20 20 22 that the best time of my
life was gonna be when I was like an old woman when I was like doing your
grandmother's music has to be the highlight of my life so I'm hoping that
that was right that sounds pretty good to me I think that would be pretty
awesome so so there a lot going on okay so coming up on birthday coming up
on that over three if losing Noah we're moving taking a trip down to Mexico next
week and then we're moving and so a lot going on lots lots going on that I'm
gonna still train keep Mike to make sure I get my videos posted and and keep keep
you guys in the loop and I don't know how to do actually do giveaways but I'm
gonna try and just I really want to do some giveaways please write comments
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me some way to get in touch with you because I want to I have lots of things
to give away I want to get I want to give stuff away and I'm trying to boost
my channel too I need to really try and get my my channel going because at
several months where I really fell behind because I just didn't realize
what was going on with advertisements and stuff like that it's
like it's like an epic thing you're hearing these channels it's like you
have to be an expert in so many different things you know crazy so I
just didn't I just didn't realize what was going on I wasn't really running ads
and I didn't realize that I was like not getting seen by anybody and so it's
bubbling away way down in the feed so I need to get boosted back up I mean I
need lots of engagements for YouTube just start thinking that I my channel
doesn't suck cuz I mean she probably thinks my
channel 6 because nobody you know any any of you use or you know so I need
lots of likes and comments and shares and and watch time and that kind of
stuff so please if you like my channel please help me out with getting me some
engagement get me boosted back up so it so that YouTube gives me gives you some
love gives me some love and gets me gets me back going again alright you guys um
alright Sonia Simon I'm paying on this I'm doing this sort of series right now
where I'm talking about post-traumatic growth and and some things like that
about mistakes and beating yourself up and forgiving yourself with the things
you've done wrong and and what I wanted to say about that is my final parting
thing is that you know you can't beat yourself up for the mistakes because
mistakes really are what made you who you are you know
honestly we're not learning anything from the victories you know you learn
from the mistakes the mistakes are who made you who you are and and the
beautiful thing is that unless you're sick unless you're disordered you can
enter you can look inside and you can learn from your mistakes and you can
grow and make you bigger you know the very worst thing is when you're when
you're like these abusers and they can't even do that they just keep making
mistakes and they have to just ramrod them with their way through it without
learning a thing you know and this is just that's really just pathetic but you
don't have to do that you can learn you can learn and a lot of times what you
end up learning is that you're relatively limited and what you're able
to do about you know allowing for luck of the
draw who you know who you've got who you were born to I mean no but no I just say
like a jock that's not true I really believe there's a cash life so but
there's something you do about haven't you in agreement about how you pick who
you are born to who your parents are but once you're here you can't pay you
know three pressures who you are and there was nothing to be changing them
you know there was not going to be any changing of your parents so the only
place there was for any change was in you and the fact that you are even here
if you're watching this channel if you know any if you even know what I'm
talking about then that means that you have done a lot
of work and that means that you have not done the autopilot thing which is
because the people that are on autopilot are either back being abused like we
were or their abusers and so you're not either one of those things you're
heading in the right direction and that's not an easy road that's the
hardest road to take that's why it's the road less traveled that's the road less
traveled not saying yeah that will make all the difference right that makes all
the difference which roads pick but yeah those mistakes made you who you are and
it was an easy life and it wasn't an easy life but um but
it's the material for being a very compassionate person for being able or
wise person and it's material for being a creative artist for sure if you have
an art that you create this is a treasure trove of material that you'll
never it'll never run dry never run dry so my son he had you know he was a
musician and he just was like he had a lifetime's worth of songs just saying
you know and I'm hoping maybe he started seeing through me you know who teach me
how to play play guitar get me to sing his songs he'd be awesome anyway
I had lots of stuff planned for him and and what I want to do is pursuing some
stuff for him too so you know let's let's just going on wants to change
changes I was in the air change that was happening okay guys thanks so much for
your support for being here with me on my birthday week I stretch out for like
a week all right and take care thank you so much for for
being here for being supportive of me and my channel and all the things that
I'm doing and please comment write you know anything anything you would like to
talk about anything you'd like to anything just write in the comments let
me know I'm I'm open I'm free and I'm you know I'm the most looking for ways
to kind of shift the channel so that it's a little bit unique a little bit
different you know in whatever area you are needing you know what is it that you
come you come online looking for you're not finding you know maybe let me know
because maybe I can do it whatever that is so okay I will talk to y'all later
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Top 10 Things Wrong with Me! - Duration: 4:44.
I think I sometimes come across in my videos as perfect.
I seem like I have my life together, you know.
I'm incredibly handsome, larger than life,
wise, witty, kind,
sincere, hard-working,
generous, free-thinking,
creative, intelligent,
inventive, articulate, thoughtful…
sorry, I think I had more.
Let me just check my script… uh...
remarkably humble, incisive, concise,
[page turning]
and just plain nice.
And look, yes, I am all of those things, but I am also human, and I do have flaws.
So today, here are the top 10 things wrong with me.
Number 1.
I mask my self-loathing with narcissism.
Number 2.
I mask my narcissism with self-deprecation.
Number 3.
I'm ugly.
Number 4.
I'm stupid.
Number 5.
I'm quiet…
to an extent that makes people think I'm cold or don't like them.
Number 6.
I don't know how to respond to the question "What's up?".
I can handle "How are you?".
I can say I'm good or fine or okay.
But "What's up?" is just so open-ended.
I don't know where to go with that.
And I look up.
I look up to the sky for answers, but the answers just aren't there.
Number 7.
Age of Ultron is my favorite Avengers movie.
Number 8.
The Dark World is my favorite Thor movie.
Number 9.
I like Finding Dory better than Finding Nemo.
I'm sorry.
I know my opinions are wrong, but I just don't stop having them.
Number 10.
I haven't seen The Lord of the Rings.
Théo, why do you hate The Lord of the Rings?
I don't hate The Lord of the Rings.
I just haven't seen The Lord of the Rings.
Okay?
I'm sorry.
Number 11.
Oh, wait, did I say top ten things wrong with me?
I meant top twenty.
There are just so many.
It's hard to keep count.
Number 12.
I used to unironically wear this fedora.
Number 13.
I like ketchup, but I don't like tomatoes.
How does that make sense?
Number 14.
Sometimes I lie about the names of my three older sisters.
I say that their names are Maria, Emma, and Miley,
but actually their names are Sophia, Jemma, and Kylie.
Number 15.
Sometimes I lie about having three older sisters.
I only have one older sister.
Number 16.
Sometimes I lie about having an older sister.
She's my younger sister.
Number 17.
Sometimes I lie about having a sister.
Number 18.
Sometimes I drag out bad jokes in the hopes that they'll get funnier with repetition.
No.
They don't.
Number 19.
I completely shut down in anxiety-inducing social situations and become incapable of
communication beyond weird noises and occasional yes-or-no answers.
Number 20.
I use my YouTube videos as an ineffective substitute for therapy.
Number 21.
Oh, I'm sorry, did I say top 20?
Well, it looks like we're still going.
Number 22.
I don't like eggplant.
Apparently this is a very big problem.
Number 23.
I'm going bald.
At nineteen.
Number 24.
I turn my genuine insecurities into jokes which makes other people think it's okay
to joke about them too and then I internalize them more deeply.
Number 25.
I bottle up my feelings until every so often I fall apart completely.
Number 26.
I don't even know where the line between jokes and genuine feelings is anymore.
Is there a line?
Number 27.
Sometimes I worry that my intrusive thoughts are my deeper, truer self coming out.
Number 28.
What is this?
Is this meant to be comedic?
I don't know what this is.
I need to know what this is.
Number 29.
I like guac, but I don't like avocados.
How does that make sense?
Number 30.
Okay, are we gonna stop at 30?
Number 31.
No, we're still at it.
The list doesn't end.
It never ends.
It doesn't get to end.
Number 32.
I tell myself that it's comforting.
That it will be comforting.
That it can be comforting.
Number 33.
I tell myself that I share these unhealthy thoughts because it can be comforting for
people to see that they're not alone in feeling them.
But in doing so, I make myself feel them.
And I try to make you feel them.
Number 34.
Why would I think that this is helpful?
Why would this be helpful?
This isn't helpful.
Number 35.
I have these harmful thought patterns, and I'll recognize them.
I'll recognize that that's how I think, and I'll tell myself that that's who I am.
I'll construct this identity around those harmful ways of thinking.
And it's comforting.
It's comforting to have this thing to identify with, so I keep being that identity.
I keep being that self.
I keep thinking in the ways that I've recognized that I think.
Because if I stop thinking in those ways, then I lose that identity.
I've told myself that those thoughts are who I am, so if I stop having those thoughts,
then who am I?
[dramatic boom]
And those are the Top 10 Things Wrong With Me!
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La Spezia and me vlog #2
watch it until the end, there's a bloopers
new dog
that's jacs, and that's cleo
on a morning walk
hahaha, got pulled by spezia
sorry, my brother is the cameraman
want to hit the mosquito but instead got hit to his head XD
jacs got stepped on
so, they've always been closed, and they meet again
while his dog, this police dog is exhausted
about this dog, well you already know it right?
lol, ignore my laugh
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