Hello. my dear Ella.
What I wanna say is...
I'm not sure if I will make it.
To be truly
Who I must be, you know?
I went today at my first interview.
I went to my first interview as a girl.
And that idiot.
He told me that he realized from the first second that I was a trans girl.
And that...
He doesn't accept me, because...
The customers who are there are just men, and they want to see a girl
And what the fuck am I ?
I know I was born in a man's body, but...
Let's not waste time and start to talk.
Tomorrow I have a new interview.
I don't know what I will do. I don't know if that guy it will like me, he can say the same thing.
A, i'm sorry, but we won't receved trans girls.
The point is, I don't know what is happening.
I have the feeling that
I'm no longer feminine, when I take my makeup off, I like more
Than when I have makeup on my face, I don't like that much.
Now i smoke some weed, because I can't take it anymore.
I'm not sure if I will make it...
The thing is , I need to get used with myself as being Ella.
I do not get used to it, and maybe that's why
I behave I don't know how...
Maybe I still behave as a guy...
It is not, I do not understand why. The people say that :
A, ok. You are a trans now, You are a girl now. Be a trans girl.
Go and be..is so easy...
If it was easy, it was great
Maybe I'm not ready to be a girl
Maybe I will never be the way a girl should be
I'm living full time girl, and I thought it would be easy.
I was thinking that if I were to be full time I would be feminine and I would not be afraid
And when I go out in public, I'm afraid of what the world says, I'm afraid of my voice.
Things like that.
I don't know what to say anymore.
I really don't know.
But I will see, I will see tomorrow what it will be. I won't give up.
I was thinking to give up, or to suicide, shit like that.
Girl...
I don't know what to say.
Sometimes I really like how I look as a girl.
But, when I go out and I talk with the people...
Sorry...
I'm ashamed, sometimes, you know?
Especially when the girls look at me, I do not know how
Bloody hell.
Anyway, my dear Ella, I wish you good luck tomorrow.
Be careful..
See how you do, be feminine
You must be feminine...
You start this life, keep going on
You see , you will make it.
You'll see what you do tomorrow.
If you see that guy it will say the same, won't kill you.
He can say : i'm sorry but we don't like trans people.
This is life, you won't take the first interview, not the second...
You will see
You need to accept this life and move on.
Ok, I'll keep you up with updates, I'm glad I have a video diary on youtube
This is life, I will see also what I will do with the guys too.
I wish to have a boyfriend, but if is not possible now...i understand.
Take care of yourself.
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Upcoming Q&A - Ask Me Anything! - Duration: 7:45.
what's going on guys it's friend from BG media innovation and today I'm gonna be
talking about an upcoming Q&A that I'll be doing where you can got you guys can
go ahead and ask me whatever questions you like whether that's relating to
e-commerce and your digital marketing anything across the board with any my
business models or anything that you want to implement that you want to go
ahead and ask me you'll have the opportunity to do that and we're
starting right now
alright guys so the first question I want to answer is basically where will
the Q&A happen you know what platform we'll be on and how you guys be able to
go ahead and ask me questions well the platform is ask me anything and
the URL is AMA feed comm and I get a bunch of kind of you know solicits and
reach people reaching out to me not obviously for specifically YouTube
because we haven't even had hit a thousand subscribers yet but we're
definitely approaching that fast but for my you to me you know instructor profile
because I have about 60,000 students and and a bunch of followers there and so I
get a bunch of these you know kind of solicitation emails the solicitation
offers to kind of do these things to help promote things and I usually just
ignore them but this kind of you know it's struck a chord with me because I
think that this website is really really cool so I think that not only is a good
opportunity because I always keep it transparent with you guys it's a good
opportunity obviously for me to kind of reach out and you know increase my my
reach and my student base and obviously my YouTube subscribers but it's also an
opportunity to you know give you guys a different look and a different feel and
a different platform to ask questions so obviously you can go ahead and ask me
questions and I'll be hosting I'll be talking about one I'll specifically be
hosting like my Q&A in a second but I kind of just want to touch on the
platform because I think it's really really cool actually I was looking
through it and that's what actually prompted me to go ahead and do this
because I think it's a really really cool opportunity for people to go ahead
and ask you know kind of experts questions and you know get a legitimate
response and you can literally like the obviously the website says ask them
anything so this is the homepage right here it's a bunch of different things
but you can see here that there's a bunch of different channels as well now
mine's obviously hosted on like marketing and business and money there's
a bunch of different channels here that you can look through I think it's hosted
on freelance and business as well but you know maybe you're an artist maybe
you you know you you're an aspiring CEO maybe you're into crypto maybe you're
into dating maybe you I think there's a gaming here we're gambling at something
I did maybe five years ago out of it really into but uh there's a bunch of
different things health you know it's something I'm into so you can kind of go
to one of these and you can see here that there
potential experts that you can you know obviously look into and you know ask
them any questions that you might have and they'll specifically give you
answers so it's a really good interaction platform where you can kind
of touch base with experts in any field and really get your you know bounce
questions off them and get responses that you know they obviously want to
help you with so before you don't just don't just take any word anyone's word
for it kind of look at their credentials but I have been kind of literally going
through these and looking at you know the type of not just instructors but the
type of people on this platform and there are obviously there are some duds
here and there or people that don't really have that much to offer it
appears at least but there are a lot of great people on here that are you know
as answering questions and that you can kind of reach out and touch base with so
feel free to check it out it's really really cool I'll be hosting on this
platform I have one here coming up it's a you know obviously just everything
that I'm doing with you know online entrepreneurship anything how to with
entrepreneurs digital marketing e-commerce anything like that you guys
can go ahead and ask me questions my specific Q&A will be hosted on the
second so it's this Saturday at noon so you guys can go ahead and ask me
questions or hop in live on Saturday and I'll be going through them obviously or
you can feel free to go ahead and ask a question now because you can ask a
question all the way up until Saturday as well and obviously I can go ahead and
answer them ahead of time so this is a good opportunity for you guys to really
kind of bounce whatever questions it doesn't matter literally anything you
can ask me anything so you know whatever questions you might have as a pertains
to a protected particular business model that you might be implementing maybe
it's just an overall general question about entrepreneurship or how I got
started you know the trials and tribulations and the struggles that I
might have faced initially you know because I'm sure there are a lot of you
in a similar boat like that or that are just getting started whatever you can
think of whatever you want to ask go ahead and feel free to ask this so I'll
be talking about this and touching on this you know briefly throughout the
week just to kind of give you guys reminders but you don't have to wait
until Saturday you can go ahead and ask questions now and I will obviously post
pin this link excuse me needed some water before I die before I
started this but you guys can go ahead and ask me questions all throughout the
week I'll actually pin this link to the actual home thing here and you can come
down and submit your question and I can answer them ahead of time but you
obviously won't see them until Saturday so I'll be touching on this I'll also
have a brief reminder you know probably in in almost every video throughout this
week to kind of you know remind you guys that I'll be doing this on Saturday but
I'll pin this like I said with the today's two winners because I forgot to
announce the winner yesterday in the first comment of you know obviously pin
like it usually is so this link will be there along with the two winners go
ahead and check that out now I do want to touch on the winners really fast I
did pull them up here because I forgot to announce one Saturday there will be
two today so gins jus in June and I can't even pronounce that I'm not gonna
try but gins I'm gonna obviously you're a winner I landed on you and ma I landed
on you as well so you two are entitled to a free course of your choice feel
free to go ahead and email me at Brian that's Brian with a why at BG media
innovation calm and obviously let me know your free choice a free course
choice and I will get that right to you okay guys so if you don't know I've been
really every single day I've been kind of giving away a free course kind of as
a promotion to not only help engagement on the channel you know but also got you
know to prompt pretty much you know comments on the channel so that we can
kind of grow our subscriber base and the engagement on a on a particular video
because if you don't know anything about the way YouTube ranks videos it
basically one of the key factors is engagement rate on that video and
obviously watch time and so on and so forth but the way that you're entitled
to win a free course is you simply comment on any video one comment equals
one entry so you can feel free to comment on multiple videos if you want
and if you were looking for my free courses simply go to my website BG media
innovation comm you can check them all out or search me on udemy under Brian
that's Brian with a why I can almost said my email there cheese prying with
the why Gera gue RRA okay guys so I kinda just want to touch on that am a
and you know the the Q&A that I'll be doing this Saturday feel free to go
ahead and post a comment like I said that will be linked along with the two
winners in the first comment pin that so go ahead ask me literally anything I
think it's a really really great opportunity for me to interact
with you guys and kind of help you out a little bit more obviously as always if
you don't want to just go ahead and ask me on the ama you can shoot me an email
to i'm always responsive and i'm always willing to help so i kind of just want
to touch on that today i think it's a really really good opportunity for us to
engage and with that being said i'm gonna end the video here comment and
subscribe it really helps the channel grow and I will see you guys tomorrow
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Grrr... what I want doesn't work
I like that you watch
that is something I do like cause
I try to...
upload something...
some little filmpjes from
back in 2013 when I was in a tv show The Undateables
but it will nott work
that can drive me wild
I've been working on it last evening for quite some time
and the whole day today too
and it doesn't go the way I want
I succeeded in getting it downloaded
those small films from Facebook
and from Youtube
but I can't stick them together and edit them
cause there is also a difference between them
then I tried and succeeded to...
with this particulair website to
edit the whole episode
and to cut and highlight some fragments
and then those...
but now I can just share it on Facebook
but not on my Youtube and...
I cannot have that
I really can't stand it
makes me furious
yes he is a good boy
the dog is shivering
it's ok sweety x2
yes your lady needed to act out a little
inhale
and exhale
the good part is that now I know how to
download Youtube videos and stuff like that
I asked a friend
he gave me the tip
and that worked so
yes but well...
the other stuff didn't work out as I wanted
the most annoyiny thing for me is
that I've been working on it for so long
I put all that energy and effort in it
and still you do not have the wanted results
so then I thought
you know what
we'll just do it like this
nice and easy
and record a little film
then I can also express a bit of my aggression
scare the dog
ah good now I can smile again
loosen up a bit
and let it go
let it loos
let it go
well then it probably must be like this
and also translating now
I also don't really feel like
but well
if you want something ey
then you have to work for it
but then this will also be the end of it
it's been enough for me
but I don't forget
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20 faits sur moi (20 facts about me) - Duration: 2:14.
Today I'm back with the 20 facts about me tag
Hopefully you can know me better
I'm Erine, 23 and living in Brussels! The capital city of Belgium
I'm naturraly blond
But a few years ago I wanted to be red
and I got pink hair
I have one little bro and 2 cats
One is Lilly and the other one is Loustick
As a belgium girl I'm a beer lover
Especially the "mardesous", even if everyone tells me that is more a guy beer
I've taken for many year swin lesson, I even done some competition
And I've won medals
I love to travel and discover new cultures
I really want to immerge myself in the country
And I'm not afraid to eat things I won't eat in Belgium
You can see here some pictures of my travel in Warsaw and in Firenze
I love coffee so much
I really need my cup of coffee to start the day
I can do Alien fingers
I couldn't before and one day I was bored at the restaurants
So I practise and now I can do it. It's only practise guys.
Talking about restaurant! If you ever invite me. Please send me the menu before
I always take too many time to decide what I want
Even if I never took a dessert, I love to do some pastry
Sunday means pastry to me
I music band I love currently is Image Dragons
I like to stand in front of my glass and try to invent new hairstyles
or to watch tuto on youtube
I like watching series
I love empire (rap music) and nashville (country music)
Really varied
or pretty little liars
I hate to be late and hate the people who are lated
I love the vanilla product (deodorant, shower gel, shampoo)
Hope you like this video
Don't hesitate to subscribe! Will mean a lot to me
or to follow me onmy social media
all the link in the description box
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Help Me Find a Song! - Duration: 1:05.
Hey, guys, I need your help.
I'm looking for one song that was popular back when I was a kid in the 2000s.
I forgot its name, but maybe you remember it?
Unfortunately, the only thing I remember about the lyrics is that they were about money,
drugs, girls, all that kind of stuff, you know what I mean?
And I know that every second hip hop song was like that at the time, but you know, that
guy rapping was actually clever about it!
He had rhymes, punchlines, flow, delivery and all that.
In fact, he wanted us to pay attention to his lyrical prowess so much that there was
no chorus between the three verses, the beat was inbetween them.
And that slow beat - oh, it was one of a kind!
It had that interesting vocal sample looped throughout the whole song
with Caribbean vibe to it, you nahmean?
I think that sample described the rapper and how he was ill or something.
Yeah, I probably misheard it.
There was also a really strong sub bass to bump in the whip, but aside from that
and some drums, there wasn't anything else and
holy shit, I just described Killa Cam by Cam'Ron.
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Sleep with me (Meme) - Duration: 0:35.
*pingu noises*
eyebrows
insert rape joke here
no homo
plz dont smash the cheeky boy
very sexy 14 year old pelvic thrusting
wait wouldnt this be pedophilia
im pretty sure cheeks is WAY older than me
but who cares lmao its just fiction
its not like i really wanna rape him or anything
...
actually i do
a
*bam*
*asgore pain noises*
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