So if I'm hearing you correctly, you've gone.. you've navigated life in a constant
communication with what you believe is the creator, asking for guidance
almost neurotic, like it almost is starting to sound neurotically every
step of the way. Now you're ready to step into a space where you're trusting you
are making the divine decision without even verbalizing or mentalizing that
there's a communication going on. It's just happening, even when you're in
complete silence. Is that is that what you're wanting to step into?
That's definitely my intention. That's what I want to be in.
Cool, cool. So yeah, to me, and even based on our previous conversations, and I
think I've said expressed this to you before.. I think it's time for you to like
really almost lose your mind to connect to your heart. It sounds like your mind
has taken over in a lot of ways hence the neuroticism and that's fine that's
fine like I think your mind is a very powerful tool and I trust it's gonna
serve you when you get into these places where you feel like you've lost your
mind. And I think what's gonna help you with losing your mind and connecting to
the truth or losing your mind and connecting to your heart is
Is like more of an embodiment of you walking by faith, because when I look at
you it appears that most of your action is in your head region. I would love to
see you like even stand right now. I would love to see.. I'm not sure if that's
possible with your camera setup. I would love to like.. I see I see you online a lot
but it always seems like you're behind a computer screen thinking about something.
Yea, so it's interesting. Before I got into spirituality, quote on quote. I was very into my body.
I was probably like 90% body, 10% mind. Like I was just doing things spontaneously as they
would come up. As I got into spirituality, and very, you know, into God, you know, into that realm..
I started overthinking a lot.
Yeah, well it sounds like you've tested both. You've tested one extreme and now
you've tested the other extreme and it's time to find
that center, that balance. And how that shows up for you, that's a great question.
Is there a, is there a time in your life when you felt like you were thriving
more so than you've ever felt? Is that right now or is that another time? When
have you felt the most balanced and the most powerful?
Uh, maybe like a year, when I was like on my water fast and on my juice fast and I was just
super, like, on-point. And I'm on a juice fast right now. It's interesting that now, on my juice fast I'm so
off point.
Yea, there's a thing
like in the diet world.. When I was a raw vegan and we were hanging and I
would interview people that were raw primal and all these like extreme diet
pioneers. There was something that was really interesting to me that it seemed
like people were actually.. the path that they found themselves on became the
path that they lost themselves on, in the sense that they were.. at first their diet
was making them more healthy, but then it became a thing, a neurotic practice of
almost seemingly cleansing their health away rather than adding to their health.
And I think this shows up in spirituality, the spiritual world as well,
or the self-development world in the sense that some people will just go from
one fast to the next fast.. go on one medicinal journey to the next journey
and maybe forgetting that like whatever is happening right now regardless of how
you're judging it to be clean or pure or good or God or even negative or positive
regardless of that like I would remind myself in you of the power of like a
being present, and a non duality perspective, a more holistic perspective.
Even when you feel like you've really messed up, that's actually..
you're doing better than ever. If.. that's the kind of faith that I'm asking you to
walk by and I'm reminding myself to walk by that faith even when I'm really the
hardest on myself and I really feel like maybe maybe in the past when I felt like
I'm doing.. this is the worst I've ever been or this is the this is not my best
self.. Then maybe.. maybe that is my best self. Maybe my highest self,
my true soul is giving me an opportunity to
even accept that dimension of me, that part of me, that part of me that's hard,
that part of me that's a critic, that part of me that's freaking, my
biggest critic, my biggest critic being me. Can I accept that part of myself when
I'm when I'm being mean to myself? Can I love the part of me that doesn't feel
loving to me? Is this.. Do you get what I'm saying? Is this is this resonating at all?
Hundred percent. This is actually currently what I'm experiencing, is uh..
And it's, again, it's easier said than done. I'm feeling like..
But what if it wasn't? What if it was easier done than said and when you
stopped talking about it and stopped telling yourself that it's easier said than
done and you just start doing it? Then you might.. I'm gonna say then we all might
find now it's easier done, or it's as easy as done as it's easy as it's said.
Right, right. No, you're totally right. I'm speaking into it so it's all.. I do see that.
I feel like I'm very hard on myself lately. And, I feel light I ought to be a little bit more
kinder to myself. Probably, the biggest theme throughout this couple years was a message of relax.
Um, I actually literally had a dream, an insight, years back saying "if you don't relax, you will be in hell."
And I keep.. these past few years have been pretty brutal for me.
Well, here this. This is the crazy part coming up for me right now. So the part of you that
believes that you may be metaphorically in hell by not relaxing.. can you love the
part of you that has created a hellish perspective for yourself? let's look at
Can I love the part of me that's..
Let's look at you like I look at Divina, my little daughter that's seven months old now.
I don't think I can.. I don't think she can do anything that I don't fully love her
and if even if she's screaming her.. and bawling her eyes out and I even have the
judgment.. I'm like why is she making this so hard for herself? Like why is she just
not relaxed? That's not how I think about it. I love her even when
she's screaming, even when she's bawling her eyes out.
Even from my perspective or anyone's perspective it looks like wow that's
unnecessary. Why would you do that to yourself? I can still love her in that
state, like truly love her. And I imagine the creator.. Let's for the sake of
their being a creator looking at us.. I imagine that creator loves us no
matter what we do. Even in our lowest of low and what I'm wondering is if we both
have that faith can we put those shoes on of that type of love? That kind of
agape.. that kind of unconditional love. No matter what you're doing, no matter what
you've ever done. Can you still love yourself fully? That's what I'm curious
about for myself and for you. And maybe that's what this quantum consultation is
about, for me to ask that question to both of us. And maybe that will become
the new question rather than "am I doing this right or wrong?" or "is this the right
decision?" is it the right decision?" Imagine if there is no right or wrong.
Imagine everything is exactly the way it's supposed to be and it's always
changing and it's always getting better and that we have the faith that we can
love ourselves no matter what the decision we make and I trust by having
that perspective will actually make more loving decisions.
Right. I mean, I do definitely see that a hundred percent and I think that's something I really need to sit with.
Yeah I'm not telling you to make like, shitty decisions. I don't think this
will be something that catalyzes you making bad decisions. I think it'll
actually.. by you having faith in your making the best decision, your decisions
will get better and better. And what I want to see from you is like that kind
of love. And what I want to see for myself is that kind of love but
particularly my prescription for you would be that kind of unconditional love
that kind of relentless unconditional love that you can love yourself no
matter what decisions you make.. but maybe less verbal and less conceptualize and
less mental and more physical. Like are you treating your physicality and the
way that you love yourself fully. Like, are you getting the proper amount of
sunshine? Are you moving your body properly? Are you tapping into your
warrior abilities? Or like, are you seeing what your body is capable of? And that
kind of love. That's my like specific idea for you.
I'm noticing myself, subconsciously, not even consciously, subconsciously saying "no."
I'm not saying "yes" to life. I'm just saying no to a lot of things.
it's hard because I train my mind to say yes, say yes, yes. And it seems it's not going anywhere. If anything
it's getting bigger. The "no" is getting bigger. Like I'm not allowing myself or giving myself permission
to say yes.
Is there something very specific that you have a specific example of?
I would say with girls, probably.
Do you really believe you're wanting to say yes? I'm all about "no"s for the..
I believe like, the shortest words are the most powerful, and if like there's like "i",
"am", "no" and then "yes." I believe a "no" is a much stronger statement than a "yes"
and especially for, what i found is the more I say "no" to the bigger and more powerful
my "yes"s get so I trust all these "no"s and the awareness of the "no"s
is getting you set up and getting ready for the biggest yes of your life and they'll
get only better and better from there on now. That's what I'm.. let me know send me
a message when you do say "yes" to that girl because I have it feeling that's
gonna be a very special relationship.
Interesting.
Man thanks for asking big questions and yeah
like, honestly I think you've gotten to a point of insights and ideas that are
maybe.. that it's a paradoxical realm of consciousness. Like let's just say if it
literally goes from literal to metaphorical to paradoxical to creative,
it's time for you to start creating. Maybe more of a creative, like you've
experienced the paradox of life. Now make your body be a creative..
creative force. I want to see your your body literally become a creative force..
not only what's going on up here.
No trying. You're doing it. It's happening. You said it.. You said it yourself. The
more you try, the harder it gets. There's nothing to try. Your "yes"s are right your
"no"s are right and I'm excited for that next big yes so let me know what it is
about.. what you say "yes" to.
I love Jah. I praise Jah. Ok so today's October
eighteenth. And I have committed to doing 111 quantum consultations. I've done nine.
This is the ninth one I believe. So that leaves a 102. If you want
to do one with me, all you have to do is be the one of the first 102 people to
send me a screenshot of your review on Audible, preferably. I think if I had to
play the game of comparison that's what I would recommend. And, or the hard copy
of the book on Amazon. And allegedly it tastes pretty good so, Aloha.
I'm happy we had this one. This one kind of tripped me out.. with the beyond time here.
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