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Would look so cool. So we're gonna keep playing with it. Oh, that's why I couldn't have a pixie, but I'd be like
Hello my people want to keep us interested for short, but I'm doing wow
I'm doing you keep away for all my people that we love a hard-working father
I'm gonna be doing it the whole entire back-to-school season because not everyone can afford school supplies
and I also gave away some other things like vinyls and so on and all you have to do is
Be following a nice term at Jesse page. I'd like to think I posted quality. Honestly some quality meat content
I put some weird stuff on there. Thank you for supporting my beams. It means a lot
Listen, if someone will support your content the good and the trashy
I'm doing several giveaway. If you follow on Twitter, it's basically just me tweeting about big hair of six and people had attracted
Bands, I enjoy and someone too. We love that too. It's really cute. Also, yeah, though
I've been like a little bit of okay like me cursing once every three months is like maybe
Risque, it's Jesse page. We're talking about okay progress and I'm doing you several would agree to subscribe in YouTube. I
Hope that made you feel awkward and pressure to subscribe that made me feel awkward, but I can in the best way
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It'd be really appreciated and let's get started. This videos always some things
I learned from my own personal experience because I really isolated myself in high school
but I don't want it to be all about my
I want it to be about you guys and hoping you cuz I care about you all
I'm a hard-working father that loves but I'm just gonna like give a quick premise and just vaguely talk about
So, okay, you know that movie perks people wallflower
bitch her ego Wallflower
well
That was me to a new extent because there were a lot of factors
And probably one of the biggest ones was that like like ever since I was two years old
I was getting tested for various things and people weren't really sure my parents were kind of worried because like when they talk
That also created quite a bit of social anxiousness
which I realized was so frequent that it was social anxiety at the time and
Basically, all of these things together I felt the need to isolate myself and it was like survival mode for me
Which was not good for me so bad for me because I did isolate myself. It was so hard for me
I was in my own bubble and I I didn't know so much of the world because I was so
scared of even talking on the phone with people and
Anyways, I was not bullied in high school or middle school. There were a few little instances, but I wouldn't say
And depending what's going through that I really do send you like all the love in the world
My brother who ever was severely bullied and seeing what he went through. Especially it's like a super shy person
That just was so incredibly terrified all the time or social interaction and especially that type of social interaction
I went into flight mode and I just isolated myself from everyone and that caused for me to
Essentially have no friends so middle school in high school
I had very few friends that I really identified with and everyone else that I was mute
Yeah, I talked and then I went to a public high school and I had very few friends there
I had enough where I felt at least like decently comfortable
And then when I moved schools I had to move because my brother again was being bullied and it was really hard
My brother and I going to such different schools cuz they were both very far
so I switched to the school that he was going to
And this which was really hard for me and I didn't identify with anyone there
And honestly, I basically went through the majority of high school with no
friends ironic jazz hands
I use comedy as a coping mechanism
No, for real, I take things seriously
and I want to take my experiences and to tell all of you what I wish I
make you feel included because I was so sad and terrified for the future and
Pessimistic and I hated myself. I hated myself so much
I definitely still deal with insecurities everyone does but I think that was my lowest point for my self-esteem
And yeah, I hope this helps you out made back to school videos over the years and the past two years
I've decided I'm gonna make these back to school videos even deeper and more helpful
And I'm going to make involve mental health related. Is that something I am incredibly passionate about?
I'm currently studying psychology in college. I've never talked about that my grandma's
always
Fascinated it's always something to talk about on my channel and I was like, let's do it in relation to school
So you just saw like nerdy ask Jessie. I don't like to show her too much of my videos. Okay. I love you all and
Let's get into it
First thing I'm going to be talking about are online friends
Probably one of the things that got me through like all of high school was the fact that I had YouTube
I know it's gonna sound incredibly cliche, but I'm just being honest. It really did help me I felt hurt
It wasn't the fall workout. That made me feel heard
It was the fact that I had a separate place
to talk cuz they always only did clubs because my friends did them all through middle school in high school and when I isolated myself
And didn't have friends
I never talked because I had no one to talk to and you don't have to start YouTube obviously
but I would say definitely finding an online group chat and so on I
Happen to have like the nicest people ever like genuinely and so I don't know you guys are all
Nice and have little group chats together and you guys will have different group chats. Like hey, I want to have a group chat
That's for people that are LGBT in questioning. I'm like seeing some of you guys organize that and that makes my heart so warm
Thank you
Just thank you for helping each other out like as a father that makes me proud
So yeah
If you you know or even just you guys will create group chats if you guys all like the same artists like the same band
Like I've seen you guys some panic at the disco ones together even just like Jesse Page ones
It's so nice
And if you have a bad day at school, you can talk about it with other people that maybe you're struggling as well sometimes
It's hard to remember that other people are struggling too and it's not that other people's struggles validate your struggles and you want other people
to struggle
But it's knowing that other people
Are struggling but still getting up every morning and are living their best life that are trying and the ther whole poll
That is what's important some of the list a few ways to make all my friends
especially if you're a little shy like me in the thought intimidates you number one is to
Find people with similar interests. You can go to Twitter Instagram as well. You can find people with similar interests by an accounts
Human DM accounts, you don't even have to be a fan of cat yourself
I'll just see it's like LGBT supportive teens like running Instagram accounts
And I'm sure they would love to hear DMS about your own stories and so on and that's a really good way to make online
Friends and Club Penguin, you know rest in peace, no makes me so email
Wow, I had some great dates on there. I don't go on any dates now
Because why I made a single joke the first minute of the video
That I have realized you can make online friends
Make sure if you are making online friends make sure that you were doing it in a safe environment
I care about you or some forums that probably are linked to some people that don't have the right
intentions and argument they say they are so just always be cautious always be cautious but there's a difference between being cautious like totally just
cancelling the idea of internet friends because I think as long as the situation's good and
Everyone's being safe and they're protecting themselves and it's legitimate. Then it can be one of the most incredible beautiful things
Yeah, okay. That was like very soft Jessie. I mean, I'm already soft
But like that was like the most wholesome you could make a whole loaf of bread. It's so cool. Okay self-love
So when you don't really identify with anyone else at your school and when you do feel isolated, it's hard to love yourself
But it's so hard
Like I said, it was the hardest point cuz you're wondering why can't I live like these people what's so easy for other people?
Why isn't easy for me you have to realize that everyone has their strengths and weaknesses
There's some things you can control there's some things you can't control one thing
You have to always remember is to never give up and lose. Hope I
Definitely had a few moments where I felt myself losing hope and I never thought I would ever find my voice
And I thought I would just live my whole life following everyone else's footsteps
I hate think if I hadn't started YouTube I would have just even no I'm getting emotional bad
Anyways, self-love is incredibly important, especially if you're going through this
It's kind of great because it's a reminder of like it makes you feel like I don't
To have physical friends in school to be a whole legitimate badass human. I am great on my own. Yeah
I don't need that some ways that I engaged in self-love. I followed my passions when I didn't have friends in high school
That is what I freakin thrive. That's what I learned to shred an electric guitar
It's something I'm really proud of and passionate about I've been playing for 13 years
I'm looking at my guitar and I'm like my baby but finding a passion that is such a great form of self-love
Another thing is just taking time to get to know your family cuz when it comes down to it, you know
It's really hard to keep in touch with friends from school, especially from high school after you graduate
So you want to make sure you know, obviously quality over quantity
If you do find people you do feel
Comfortable with and that you identify with 3 is if you are beating yourself up in your head constantly
Because you don't have rights because it can be more prevalent if that's what you're going through
You can definitely get help and you deserve it hundred percent
To talk to someone, you know if it's a school counselor for the best thing about me
just kind of being
Alone in high school was I didn't give a crap about what people thought about me as much that was like my form of self-love
And I think for a while I took the not being friends with any one thing and I turned it into
Self-hatred and I'm gonna just stipple everything about myself and I'm like, no, I don't have anyone making fun of me. This is cool
It's kind of cool that it's just me
So I'm gonna find some cool interests that other people might think are weird as hell and I'm gonna love it
Like that's when I felt like intense anime like really came through
I want to Anime Expo this year and it was like the best weekend of my life gloves
If you love electric guitar or you sing. Yeah, that's so cool
That's so cool proud
If you don't find anyone that you identify with at school, you know
You can join a band or maybe find kids that are older than you were younger than you that also have the same interests
joining clubs is a really good way to
Go with similar interests there even like so many different
And so on you identify your religion is so on if that's something that ever even makes you feel a little isolated
or maybe that's one side of yourself that you haven't really fully embraced because it's coming from other people that also
identify that way then that's a really cool way to just get more comfortable with your identity and also to make
Friends if you don't have friends in school. Yeah for me I personally
Never talked about this a lot. Am I gonna do it? Yeah, you know what screw it this year?
I really wanted to talk about this essentially
I was raised Jewish and my family's Jewish and I didn't have friends in school
So I took up key broo I can read Hebrew
I love you drew and I got poppets
But I went to Israel and got experience the culture and it's something that was really cool for me
And I mean obviously not everyone that's watching this is gonna be Jewish but like just in example
You could do church camp. You can join an LGBT youth group. You can join Girl Scouts. I was a Girl Scout
I found it telling other wholesome people as we got older and older the people that like really stuck with Girl Scouts
It was more and more about charity and because more about charity work
That's why I like I like to do money a lot of my videos and stuff
Honestly, a lot of that comes from like my girl-scout roots
Bought of us from eating Girl Scouts
But we loved it, which I don't know why they made fun of us like we'd Stoke cookies
have you tried a Samoa a Finn mint a
frozen Thin Mint my king or
Another thing don't tell yourself. You're never gonna have friends if someone comes by and you really get along with them
It can be really scary after you haven't been friends with anyone to open up to people it can be so terrified
But you deserve that and it's really hard to you know
Trust people and so on but you can tell people what you want as you start to feel more comfortable and it's something to celebrate
Yay, boof. It's getting so dark outside
Like my soul, no just kidding. I'm a bright and happy beam, but it looks so like spooky
It's like I'm telling like a weird bedtime story and that is my ratatouille is an underrated movie
Okay, anyways set goals for yourself daily, even if it's just saying hi to one person
Another thing is if you really do
issues just opening up to people gonna have people that you're just friendly with I had some people in school that like
I would just have casual talk with and I wouldn't even really consider them my friends
We didn't know a lot about each other
But that was definitely like a first step for me before I was able to actually open up to people and be proud of yourself
For even being able to do that, that's really cool
Another thing is I would you might have a work at lunch
I would eat my food and do my homework at the same time and then what I got to go home
I would like go on my one direction some words
actually and like as the closet of girl would definitely read some weird gay stuff and like I was what I did and it was
good for my mental health
It was like a way of self-love and other people when they went home they had work in their schoolwork
But I always got it done actually during my school day. That was another thing
It's a little tip while I was lighting. I was so dark imagine and then when the clocks right?
I would like literally like an anime villain
like a cartoon villain
Do not be embarrassed when your parents hug you or
Drop you off for school because your parents love you and that's a sign of love and that's something to be appreciative
Your parents are the ones taking the helper with you and that one random person looking past you that is literally going to judge you
For hugging your parent
Loser, they're the loser
Appreciating your parents is not lame. Okay, it's so not like it's not I promise especially if you're appreciating your dad. I
Promise you he bore watching you as much as it seems in your head?
And in fact what helped me was just thinking just assuming no one was watching me and not in a bad way
At first I was assuming no one was watching me and like me no one cares about me
But isn't like no everyone's focused on themselves in their own confidence and I'm gonna focus I'm being confident in my own skin for myself
Focusing my energy more than that really hoped
So now we go to events and we're rainbow crowds in public like I promised you was a possibility
It takes so much time baby steps not having anyone you identify with or that you
Really feel friendly with in school does not mean you're never gonna find those people ever there
Humans in the world and dogs dogs are so nice and supportive and just beings that will make you feel nice
Oh my god. I look so creepy with this lady
Okay, that's stop with the maniacal operator. Don't let other people's interests
Influence your other people's interests don't have to be yours
And if you have an interest that is unique to yourself, and it's not conventional
That's freaking gritty and trust me as an adult kids sometimes in high scores mean about that stuff
But it was definitely not like cool that I really play electric guitar
Surprisingly weak electric guitar so cool. Why was that not cool? Anyways, no one really really cared if I was like
But now like as an adult people think it's so cool
But even if people are like yeah that's dope. Like especially a girl playing electric guitar
But even if people like it as an adult like didn't approve of it
I would still frickin play it and slay it
I didn't mean to make that rhyme telling jokes to yourself and making yourself laugh is the best that's a Jessi page
If you don't have an audience make yourself laugh, it's so fun. I love having witty banter in my head
Okay, that was a silly one ahead of throne there
Come over that. Yeah, but it really benefits, you know
Upsides and downsides to everything and sometimes you can control the situation and that's okay
I believe that if you just keep spreading love and positivity in this world
It will come back to you and when people were like really mean to me
I just wanted to become a negative person and let it consume me
But instead I just I didn't hate those people and I just kept trying to be the most positive person I could be for myself
And it's not selfish to do that. You're not selfish for taking time for yourself
Amount of friends you have visit to find him as a person
It really doesn't I really believed it didn't matter followers who have on social medias are also definitely
especially
presence to be appreciative for good food and
dogs and great YouTube videos and there are so many beautiful things in the world and if there's no one in your school that you
identify with
Your accounts in a ton of your posts I stand you all and
obscene future
Wha-ha-ha. Okay, actually really like the maniacal laughing. It makes me feel cool
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