Hey ya'll, so this past week the main thing
that I've been thinking about is how do
i define myself as a person or you know
what makes me "me", who am I, all the
questions of course like not like I got
it figured out but just...this is what
I've been thinking about and the reason
the main reason why it kind of got
brought up was I had a voice lesson on
Tuesday and in the voice lesson i was
messing up on a lot of things that I had
you know previously not been like all
these certain techniques and things that
I was just having trouble with and my
breathing and and my teacher was
commenting on it and I just got really
frustrated throughout the whole lesson
and after the lesson I'm just thinking
about you know all the bad things I was
doing and blah blah i'm just i was so
horrible
whatever you know that that cycle that
everyone gets into and I started
wondering you know what would happen if
I lost the ability to sing then I
started you know thinking like well what
about my other talents what if I lost
those who would I be without these
things that i put my self worth and
value in and I don't think it ever
really hit me how much I put my
self-worth into my talents and things
that I make (until now) and I don't think it's
bad to be proud of stuff that you make or
you know be proud of your talents and
want to get better and whatever but
whenever you start putting your self
worth as a human into your talents or
things that you make
I think that it can be really bad for
your mindset and stuff because you know
what if you are having an off day and
your singing is bad like mine was
Tuesday or all you know what if you
create something and you think it's
terrible like all the sudden your self
worth of yourself...you're thinking you're
terrible
and you know got me thinking like well I
don't think that people that don't have
the same talents as me are worthless i
think everyone inherently has worth and
that you know no matter how much talent
or whatever you create like everyone has
you know worth and it got me thinking
you know first off about the whole like
you know what am I putting my self-worth
in how am I looking at myself and then
the other thing where I was like if this
is how I define myself what am i without
those things if I didn't have the
ability to sing or paint or whatever if i
didn't have those specific things like
who am i without those if i'm defining
myself by the things that I can do I
guess basically what i'm trying to say
is what do you think you know defines a
person what do you think makes a person
who they are you know is it is their
talents is it their looks
is it their mindset is it their
experiences I don't know...you know and
then then and then whenever you start
thinking about that you're like well how
much of myself that I think of myself as
unique or under my control I don't know
is actually completely manipulated by my
circumstance-situation-experiences you
know how much of me is truly "me" and not
nurture what's so cool is that we can
constantly remake ourselves and change
ourselves and and be more like we want
to be and I think that's awesome but at
the same time sometimes it makes you
kind of be like well who am i if I'm
constantly changing myself like what is
the real me
I don't know basically...basically I don't
know who i am and this is a very
confusing weekly thoughts video because
i am confused but it's what I've been
thinking about so I'm just going to kind
of put this out there and ask like you
know whenever people ask you who are you
how do you respond you know most
most of the time it's it's kind of like
well I am...I am this name i am a mother
I'm a sister I have this job you know I
am these things but what happens if
those things go away or I don't know
it's just so interesting how people
define themselves you know like what
they use to answer those questions and
right now i mean i don't really know the
answer to that question and I think that
it's okay not to know and not have all
the answers you know and that sometimes
you should just sit with things and be
okay with that *thank you*
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