Cong Minh blog: Youtube daily Time Aug 5 2017

Hey, so, it's been a while.

Ummm,

I haven't intentionally been shying away from making videos,

but it's not been happening. I think number one because

I've just been busy with life and Uni and number two,

umm,

Because my self-esteem is at an all-time

low at the moment, and I'm not I'm not sure how I got here when that happened, but it's been

influencing my ability and my willingness to sit down and talk to a camera.

I also failed VEDJ (video every day in June),

arguably. It depends what you would classify as failure

I don't know I got out of VEDJ what I set out to get out of VEDJ

And I missed a lot of videos especially near the end

But VEDJ was still an important thing for me to do at the time.

So for the greater part of this year I felt quite

hopeless and quite helpless, especially when it comes to

the state of the world as it is at the moment. I've mentioned this briefly in a video

I filmed at the beginning of the year

but I've just been struggling a little to have faith in the longevity of the world and

humanity and also, I've been struggling with

actually having any investment in the longevity of humanity and the world.

I'm someone who benefits from a logical

direction or action to take against a perceived problem

and when it comes to trying to deal with things as big as the world as we know it and

climate change and collective opinion

There's no one direction or action you can take- there's just not

(laughs darkly) and there never will be it's not a simple problem.

And also, there's no

bearings, there's no way to tell if you're achieving your goal

There's no little helpful green light hanging around to tell you when you're on the right track or doing the right thing.

And I've also been

doubting my

ability to even

make an impact on the world in any way shape or form.

However, in early July, I

completed the first semester of the second part of my double degree

which is basically a two-week intensive, wherein, basically, a whole semester is packed into two weeks.

And while initially I was really,

uhhh,

kind of dreading it, I didn't think I'd work well having to go into Uni from 9:00 a.m. to 5:00 p.m.

every single day for two weeks

I didn't think I'd work well being around that many people for

so long so frequently and I didn't think I'd work well having to get so much intense,

detailed work done in that short amount of time. However,

quite the opposite happened. I'm not gonna go into great detail

But that course gave me a lot of hope. It also gave me the motivation that I have been lacking

all year, to just do things and just make and

to just stop overthinking

everything.

The main thing I have learned over the past few weeks,

or the main theme that has permeated my reflections over the past few weeks,

is that things take time.

I've spent a lot of time this year craving the middle of

the "adventure" because it would be so much easier to just skip to the part where I'm comfortable.

And I've also spent a lot of time applying the logic and the

expectations of the middle of an adventure to the beginning of an adventure and

wondering why I feel so dissatisfied.

Basically I've spent a lot of time

unintentionally completely ignoring,

emotionally, the fact that it's a part of my life I'm going through right now is new and something

I've never experienced before and it's completely okay

to be a little scared about that and a little uncomfortable.

I'm constantly asserting that I need to be always in control and that new situations and new

experiences and places that aren't part of my plan stress me out a lot, in fact that's

pretty much one of the first things I tell people about myself

for some reason, however, I haven't been actually applying this knowledge to certain aspects of my life.

I have also recently realized that I have a lot of

deep-seated

insecurities that I wasn't aware of.

Never underestimate a simple problem.

And also never underestimate how much a simple problem can fuck you over when it's not dealt with

Because, although it's more complex than this, I think the thing I've been struggling to deal with over the past few months

is the fact that I have been literally thrust out of my comfort zone into a completely new situation with no bearings.

But because I thought I had prepared for this and I spent so long

craving and planning for university, and because I needed a change in routine and a shake-up of

my life as a whole, I thought I was immune to the insecurity and instability and uncertainty that comes

hand-in-hand with new experiences.

I was exploring Kings Cross,

uhh,

Australian Kings Cross, the other day for a UnI

writing task thing with a few friends and I came across

a discarded plate of lasagna just sort of balanced perfectly against the curb of a side street.

And for some fucking reason this abandoned plate of lasagna

reminded me of the extent to which I have been procrastinating living.

I was looking at this lasagna, and I think I just began

to think about the traditional "art student" lifestyle that I have been craving and all of my worries associated with that.

This is supposed to be the best part of my life right now, this period from around 18 to 30.

It's supposed to be "the time of my life", it's- it's the part of life that everyone looks back on and

why doesn't it feel like that? And I'm so aware,

I'm *so aware* that life doesn't always meet expectations however,

that's- this has just been going through my head a lot over the first half of this year and

this cold pasta square reminded me that things take time. And, furthermore, it reminded me that

literally the only thing standing in

the way of me living the life that I want to live at this point is myself, and how much

accepting opportunities scares the shit out of me.

Things take time and

people take time to adjust to new situations,

and it has taken time and discarded lasagna for me to remember this.

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Let me know in the comment section

what's new in your life?

Has there been anything big or even small recently that's jumped on into your reality, and how have you dealt with that emotionally?

I hope you have an amazing day, and I will see you whenever I see you with a new video. Bye

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Posterity | Episode 26 | "Till Next Time" - Duration: 3:31.

Welcome Internet friends to the last vlog of semester one, 2017!

I made it!

I survived the semester!

[cheering and happy music]

So, it's been an intense couple months.

I mean, absolutely nothing went to plan.

Not the large group of friends or the parties or the girlfriend.

Hashtag that single life.

But you know what?

And this might be the end of semester high and relief speaking, but,

I'm kind of glad that nothing worked out.

Because I learnt that I'm more resilient than I thought.

I mean, several times I thought that the stress of unI was going to kill me.

But it didn't. Aaaand, well, here I am.

Like a cockroach that just won't die.

[news broadcast music]