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is that even a word?
okay….
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Well hello everybody and welcome back to my channel.
Or if you are new, hello welcome to my channel.
My name is Sophie.
So recently I saw a video that Molly Burke uploaded.
If you don't know who Molly Burke is, she is a blind youtuber
and i absolutely love her videos and would love to meet her one day.
And she did a video on whether she wanted to be cured and get her sight back.
And it got me thinking about my health and what my answer would be because
people have asked me if i wish that i could you know, get my hearing back.
jumping into the question, now i know a lot people will have a lot of different answers.
and i know my mum had a very different view to what i have
because i actually asked her this question this morning
before filming this video.
for me personally, the answer would … be kind of dependant on the day but more on
the No side.
And i'll tell you why.
I have had my hearing for the majority of my life and it is only in like the last 6
months to a year that my hearing has really really decreased
and got worse.
Which is what decreased means.
obviously! haha So for me i've kind of only recently gone
through all the motions of adjusting and kind of almost mourning my hearing
if that makes sense.
And when i first lost my hearing or like first started becoming more and more deaf,
i kind of was like, Oh my g-d this is the worst thing in the world.
how am i gonna live?
how am i gonna you know do everything because for me hearing was my normal and is what i
knew.
so when i first lost it i was kind of like oh my g-d like…
i want my hearing back.
like give me my hearing back.
i hated it.
i absolutely hated it.
i felt so isolated.
i felt so alone.
and i felt like it was literally the end of the world.
however, as i have learnt to adjust and learnt to adapt things and kind of got more familiar,
i see that actually it's not all that bad and honestly, there are some very good points
to having a hearing loss.
like, when i wanna just shut off from the world, i can!
i can just take my hearing aids out and i'm like… hmmm silence!!
when i have a really bad head ache… i don't have to listen to anything.
but yeah… there are a lot of adaptations and there things that i've had to change
and there are things that maybe i can't do as easily as i used to.
But, for me personally, i think kind of going through it all i feel like when i'm constantly
looking for a way to get it back, or constantly looking for a way to improve
it, i'm so focused on that, and i'm not living
my life.
i'm too focused on the, i want something i don't have.
and i'm not, learning to adjust, i'm not learning to
adapt and i'm not accepting my reality now.
And whilst, yes if there was a way to be like, okay take this pill and you get your hearing
back, it would be maybe something i would consider
but honestly, i don't know if i would because,
there's nothing wrong with having hearing loss.
Like, just because you can't hear, you can't hear…
it doesn't stop you from doing anything else.
And you see things in a very different way.
You see more than you would maybe if you have hearing because you kind of pick up more around
you.
And again with all my other health, i have made some really amazing friends that,
i may never have made if it wasn't for having hearing loss.
And i know that in Molly Burke's video, straight out no.
And she has had blindness now for 10 years and it is her reality.
And i think that she is able to accept that so amazingly, is ah-mazing!
like, one day i hope that i can be exactly like that but for me now it is still fairly
new.
it is still you know in the first year kind of thing.
so, whilst i wouldn't say out right yes i want my hearing back,
there's also not an exact no to it because it's still fairly new and
i'm still learning to adapt to situations and there's still situations
that come up that i get thrown off by because i've not experienced it yet.
So, it's still kinda new and there are moments in my life, in day to day or weekly or monthly
or whatever, that i'm kind of like, i kinda wish i could
hear right now.
But for the most part, the answer's actually no!
So… that is why i say maybe yes… maybe no because
there's certain situations that i'm still learning to adapt.
But the ones that i have learnt to adapt, and the ways i've accepted, i have accepted.
and for me, accepting it to be able to move on is just,
this is what i have, this is what i've been served,
this is what i'm gonna, you know this is my reality and this is how i'm gonna
live now.
And by wanting to get something back, you're living in the past,
you're not accepting, you're not moving and you don't feel like you know…
you're… you're living to be honest.
Like every time i have to go to hospital appointments, or try something new,
or try this medication, i just feel like i'm not living like i'm
letting all this stuff take over.
So for me, much like i'm sure many other people,
dealing with it and accepting it and moving on and just forgetting about the past and
what i had, is a way to deal with life.
I feel like if i wasn't lucky enough to have a family who thinks and accommodates
for me or my work colleagues, if they weren't you
know willing to make more of an effort so that i can understand,
or my cheer friends or my coaches or just my friends.
if they weren't so good and so easy about adapting and learning new ways and understanding
what i need, then i feel like, i probably would want my
hearing back because i would feel like it's the end of the world
no matter how much i tried to adapt.
But at the same time, because they are and because i can see things in such a different
way, i see life in a different way and i have kind
of been more exposed to a different culture and different of living
and a different language in sign language and stuff,
you just see life in a very different way and different isn't always bad.
I am horrible with change at first, but sometimes i then kind of learn to love
that change more if that makes sense.
And the reason why i haven't, yes it's change, and yes it's different
and it's not the normal, but it's not the end of the world and you
can live just as good a life as someone who is fully hearing.
Or fully deaf.
Or mild hearing loss.
It doesn't matter.
there are some amazing deaf actors out there, and you know, entrepreneurs and amazing people
living this life just in a different way.
I feel like people need to get over the whole 'hearing loss is bad',
you can't do this, you can't do that.
Because lets face reality, the only difference between a hearing person and non hearing person
is that.. non hearing person can't hear.
And does things in a slightly different way.
It doesn't mean they can't it.
hearing is still what was my normal, this is now my reality and i'm ok with that.
And i am accepting it.
I obviously haven't fully accepted it because i mean it's not even been like a full year
since my hearing's gotten that bad.
But i'm accepting it and i feel like this is my way to accept it.
So if you did like this video or you found it helpful in anyway i would love for you
to give it a big old thumbs up.
And in the comments below, i would love to hear how you think you would deal with it.
Do you think you would be more like myself where you kind of just accept it
and you learn to live with it and you just move on and you're not that bothered about
getting it back like the past back.
or do you think you'd be more like my mum where,
although you've accepted what your reality is, you're always looking for ways to
improve it to make life easier without having i guess to make so many adaptions.
Because both ways are perfectly normal.
and if you're not already i would love for you to subscribe.
I love the fact that we're getting so many little family members at the moment.
it makes me feel so happy.
and i've had a bunch of you messaging me recently saying that my videos have helped
or made you laugh or you know cheered you up made you feel less
alone, and honestly, i just wanted to say thank you
so much because it means the absolute world to me.
Honestly, it makes me feel so amazing that i can do that just by
sharing my experience and my views on you know living with chronic illnesses.
So i just wanted to say thank you, thank you thank you so much.
You are never alone and i would love to hear from any of you guys so if do wanna get in
contact, don't be shy, i don't bite.
My social media links are all in the description box below as is my last video so you should
go and watch that.
And yeah.. i think that's all so …
Until next time, Keep Watching
Stay Strong And
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